i could loose those and put it there

errr so yeah i uhhh. got a penny? pick it up; all day long you’ll have to carry around that extra penny. May just be the heavyest penny you have ever picked up. I mean damn, ive got a sack that jingles, and it gets lighter every day. Well thats another topic, just to get on topic lets get off topic. Life Life life. Well lets go somewhere else. I had a dream, or series of dreams really, recently where i have been grappling with the task of using my will correctly. but its not using per-say because its the act of not-using or not-doing that allows me to use it. I know paradoxical and cyclical and it doesnt make sence. but its just that I, or maybe the English language lacks the proper terminology for such an action.

The best way I can describe it is similar to knowing how to drive a car. Most anyone can use an automobile, some drive them better or worse than others. Some aggressivly some timid. Some people run thier cars into the ground, and others repair and maintain them. there are some functions of a car like 4 wheel drive that some people use, but use incorrectly, others dont even know it exists, and then a third type knows when and how to use it to maximize its effectiveness and efficiency.

The same is true with Will (or any of the other many talents we possess) You first have to KNOW that its there, that this thing exists and is usable. Its possible to brute-force it into working expending all our energy into the activity, but once you realize that it isnt something that you can effect physically like other things in our waking world then it takes signifigantly less energy, not to mention more efficiently.